No Caption, But A Post is in Order

Hello all! It's been so long since I posted on this blog - over 7 months to be exact - yet here I find myself typing away something to anyone who still patrols by the see my old caps or hope that I have a new one coming. Unfortunately, I do not have a cap for you today: this post is more of an update for you all.

As you know, I left this blog 8 months ago abruptly to take care of my personal life. Eight months later, I can say that it was both an excellent decision, and an impossible one. What I mean by this is that I have been successful at completing what I wanted to and taking care of myself better than I had before in years, and yet I kept finding myself crawling back here, looking through old posts of mine and new posts of the rest of the captioning community. I was away for long spells, weeks and months, without checking in - or I could find myself online each day for a week, trying to enjoy the creativity and passion that the community exhibits and brings out in me. I've seen people in the community that I have followed for years pack up shop and leave, just like me - others are still around, and I've enjoyed the occasional reverie in scrolling through their blogs/sites to see their work. Some new people have even started up blogs that I find fantastic. But for these eight months it has always felt the same for me - reading someone else's work is not the same as creating your own. It has been a hole in my life that my other successes as a result of leaving this blog cannot fully cover up.

The other thing I always think about is the way I left. Captioning blogs shut down after only weeks, or a year, or even a couple years after much success. These past 8 months I have seen more well-known captioners shut down their blogs than I can remember in my entire time in the community. So I always thought to myself - have I cut out at the right time? Is it bad to leave people hanging (with my How to be a Blonde Bimbo 101 series unfinished) when I promised more? Do I deserve to post so frequently, disappear, then reappear once more as if nothing has changed?

I don't know the answer to all these questions - I have some thoughts, but those would take too long to write. So I'll say something that I do think: I feel like I owe it to you all (and myself) to finish the How to Be a Blonde Bimbo series. I had finished 59 caps out of the 101 I had aimed for, but there were so many images I had stored that the potential for great caps were still there. In fact, when the urge struck me over this 8 month hiatus, I have even created a few more HTBABB caps. So here's what I plan on doing. At some point in the future - maybe a week, maybe a month, maybe in 2014 - I plan on producing the remaining 42 HTBABB caps for you all! I cannot promise that I will continue captioning after these are all done, nor will I guarantee them to be on 42 straight days like I did the originals in the series (for the most part), but I will tell you to stay tuned, because your patience will be rewarded.

Love to all who have contact me, those I've been following, and all who still follow me,

-Elena Starz